I'VE GROWN EMOTIONALY INTO
A STAGNENT VICTIM OF TV
I DONT KNOW MYSELF
ANYMORE THESE "QUESTIONS?" CONTINUE TO DISEASE MY SOUL MY ADULT
TENDENCIES SEEM CHILDLIKE TO SPITE ALL OF THE WEAKNESS I DON'T BELIEVE
IN ME TOO BUSY BELIEVING YOUR BLATANT SUGGESTIONS MY MESSIAH REIGNS
FEAR WITH ELECTRICITY MURDERING THE IDEAS THAT WERE SWIMMING THOUGH
ME YOUR-LOVE YOUR-FEAR YOUR-FATE MY LOVE WILL NOW DI-SIN-TE-GRATE
WHAT'S BECOMING OF ME IS WHAT IS COMING FOR YOU WHAT IS COMING FOR
ME IS WHAT I ALWAYS THOUGHT THE END MIGHT BE NO BLOOD OR DISEASE
THE BLIND WILL DIE PRAYING ON THERE KNEES IT'S NOT WHAT I EVER WANTED
IT TO BE MY EYES STAY CLOSED TO THE THINGS I SHOULDN'T SEE
Cornered in this evil room
so tired I can't sleep As tired as a God who's wondering what's wrong
with everything All this waste builds up inside I wish a place to
hide Empty fears to ballroom cheers A struggle to survive Mister can
you tell me why we're all alive Can you at least answer that one question
right We're born in to this world unsure of what's in store Waiting
for the reasons we're prepared to die for Society prepares the crime
but the criminal commits it Fiendish thoughts of what God has done
unceasing in my mind The book man wrote is nothing more than a guideline
to our life Feel the beast who marks this land in search of who we
are First you cry-live-then you die. WHY IS LIFE SO HARD?
He knew his life was almost
gone The end stood just three letters from fate He knew his love was
the demon No time to change the sin he relayed And now he lays alone
in a cold world Waiting for the end to come Dreaming about all the
good times He inflicted on everyone What is there left to believe
You are who you deceive She loves too much to be happy Her pain reflects
the tears in his eyes Her truth is dulled by intention Her love is
waiting to die And now she is alone with her lies A past she won't
be able to change He hates what she's done to his reasons She's painted
their portrait with pain
Completion is my reason
I'm slicing through decisions Like I'm gonna cut into you with words
so deep They can't be true You should'nt live to regret mistake you've
made You should'nt waste the life you're too late to save It's growing
darker now because it's becoming too late I'll carry on your big mistake
BIG MISTAKE BIG MISTAKE I'LL PERPETRATE YOUR BIG MISTAKE Your reasons
are my nemesis I'm regretting all the things I wished I'm seeing you
now in a terrible truth I can't believe I did this to you I see you
and your glazed over eyes reminds me of all your twisted lies Your
hands folded you look so fake Your dying proof of your mistake YOUR
MISTAKE YOUR MISTAKE YOU ARE NOW YOUR MISTAKE
Taste kills smell the obvious
lie Your skin steams with the smoke from hell Lips whisper words with
illicit response Your eyes glisten with a curious swell Flowing skin
like flames the light flickers a loving stench My hands press you
in to a place your concience never went The size of life expands-the
warm liquid runs through your hands The dying soul increases in the
space that you release it in Sensation has climbed in to the dark
Lick the spot-make everything clean Sweat drapes over everything with
the fear that makes tomorrow mean Deflowering you with the heat that
cries to make it hurt again It almost feels like love likes pain the
rage that makes you shove it in Emotion has no place here Illusion
and replacement-unpredictable fear The feeling makes you need it Take
my love and shove it in
IM A VICTIM LIKE A CHILD DEPENDANT
ON RAGE USING THE AGGRESSION THAT FILL THE AIR TO LOOK INTO YOUR FACE
I CAN SMELL WHATS ROTTING FIST FLY AS I'M RUNNING THE OPENINGS BECOMING
ON A FACE THAT SEEMS SO STUNNING YOU DIE AND ROSES BLOOM I DECIDE
ON A FITTING TOMB MY RAINBOWS BLACK AND WHITE YOUR THE THOUGHT I KILL
TONIGHT YOU SHATTER ME AND ALL THE DREAMS ARE A LIE I KNOW TOO MUCH
TOO MUCH TO LIVE LIKE THIS IM PROUD ENOUGH TO DIE I ESCAPE THROUGH
A TRANCE YOU CANT DEFY YOU SHATTER ME WITH DISEASE THAT FILLS YOUR
EYES ARMS RAISED TO CHALLENGE THE SKY FUCK FATE MY HATE WILL NEVER
DIE A RACE TO WIN TO BE THE FIRST TO DIE YOUR BE THE THOUGHT I KILL
TONIGHT
I can't believe this is
real.I'm to far inside myself to care.The same claws that scratch
you to the soul are the same weapons that are bleeding me. **The same
poison that shoots from your eyes.Bleeds on to a soul that's decaying
from the inside.The water is me and I'm falling slowly,Now everything
is impossible.The space inside you is full.Fuck you ,I'm emptying
my fever all over you.I'm starting to slowly realize where I am.........Inside
of you. Where am I now? Your lost in yourself.. My private hell,Your
lost in yourself I stare in the mirror I've lost my will Will it ever
stop? Now it's impossible.. I lived my life the way I wanted too,I've
made choices you would never make.The same claws that scratch you
to the soul,point to the chances that I take. **repeat I've grown
now,into a victim.I lost my soul in this mindless kingdom.I know now
what I never knew before. I stare up at god dying on the floor..**repeat
A pile of atrophy nothing
will get to me I'm above you all I'm supreme look at me I speed through
what keeps you tied Cause I've got nothing to hide The words spill
out- they keep me alive Like the reasons I can't figure out Cause
I'm blinded by white and wanting to shout Kill the light I can't cope
with the sound Everything floods me when I'm coming down I wish you'd
kill me. Scratching and ripping the scabs off my soul as I'm getting
stuck and I am under control The feelings get weak as my words fade
away Stuck in a shell I'm remembering me Overcome with the action
that kills my reaction I'm trapped inside of being me When I want
to escape it shoves my life in my face And says eat what I give you
to be I'm drowning in the feelings I never knew I had Feeling good
in a world that is mad My savior he's hiding my feeling from me I
hate just to love what is bad to feel free
My hands extend out in front
of freedom To molest the thought that's destroying me My eyes guide
my swollen disease I'll inject you with the decay that stripped me
clean I'll make you pay for the shape I'm in The little thoughts that
pave my road to sin I'm just a speck of what is real I'll bring it
in to view with the pain I make you feel My freedom is my demise I
keep seeing it where it lies It lies in the life I've missed Stripped
down to this